Why am I blogging here again?

Umm I am hoping to be able to use my level 2 BPs that my friend who visited here for 1 month in his quest for a job bought for me (refer to my first blog of 2010). Its been with me since August but as luck would have it, it didnt come with the instructions. Grrr!

At the same time, I would like to keep track of my progress in trying to regain myself health wise (overall too..)

Also, its the only blog that I have made public. I have other 2,

- 1 just for my personal stuff

- and the other 1 for my thoughts brought about by my "tunganga" moments of (staring at nothing, killing time etc) at the bus stop, on the bus, in a group conversation where I dont like listening to anymore, daydreaming time, loooong meetings, while stuck in a traffic jam or whenever I have that "ding!!" moment lolz :))))

So there...

Fitness Age of an Old Lady

MY GAWD!!! tsk tsk tsk..

I went to the gym with bf yesterday around 8:45pm. Did my usual stretching, with aches still but a little less. I was kind of tired for the day but I decided to work out.

There are 2 treadmills and 1 ellipitical machines in our bldg gym, 1 was occupied when we came so I decided to use the elliptical since I have used it so many times before (before as in 6 yrs ago!! I was a member of an elite gym back at home and I loved using this machine, no pressure on my joints but works my thighs & bum better). I got on it and started at level 3 thinking "level 3? phew! I used to start at level 5 then".. stupid stupid stupid mistake. In short, by the time I reached 15 mins I was breathless and was having an asthma attack and a really bad one at that!

I still tried to slow down as I usually do on a work out even though I feel like I was in labour by the way I was breathing out so loudly and consecutively. I stopped and sat down and I really couldnt breath. Good thing is that the gym is 5 flrs away to my flat.. my bf was so concerned (of course! he better be!!) but I told him not to stop running

I walked towards the lift and I was ready to bang my head for the lift to open (I had this thing of banging my hands on something when I couldnt breath so I can forget the breathlessness feeling and feel the pain more in my hands, just to take away my attention to "IM NOT BREATHING!!"). For what it seemed like an hour the lift opened and thank God our flat is just 6-10 giant steps away. I can feel my face numb as I tried to open the door and immediately took my bag where my medicine was.. It took 20 minutes before I can breath normally. with my medicine, it usually takes not more than 5minutes for my breathing to normalize.

That was a bad attack. All my fault:
1) Should have started at level 1 to warm up, climb up to level 4 max and then back again
2) Should have taken my asthma meds before working out as I know Im not up to par yet.

This is what happens if you let go people!!! Dont take your health forgranted with BPs or none! Exercise and eat well!

Its so sad... I used to be so strong, I mean endurance wise. Now I feel like an old lady!!!

But Im working on it ;)

Two years later...

Gawd! So much has happened..

I re-read all my posts and I would like to kick myself!!! Who was that person?!?!? eating so healthy and exercising early in the morning?!??!?!?!?! Deym!

Let me give you a run down:

After Sept 2008, I moved to a 2 BR apartment with a friend. Started going out- clubbing, drinking and eating normally again, without the pills. I stopped working out at all! The only workout I get is when I climb the stairs to our flat (2 flights). Sometimes I do the 4 flights of stairs in the office but the habit wore off.. I started to eat more and more Indian food. My friend loves to cook and she makes us eat! Its delicious and I did not complain :) coz I dont know how to cook anyhow & Im not "allowed" to use her kitchen :)) I mentioned it because Indian food are rich foods and with all the spices and ghee used to cook 'em.. Oh boy.. By December 2008, I gained weight.. I can still fit into my size 8 clothes but mostly in my size 10.

When I went back home in December, I ordered for the level 2 of the Bangkok Pills. I took it for 1 month. I dont know if it was the change in weather and the pollution or the BPs but I find myself sick every morning for the days I took the level 2 BP, I felt groggy like when I have just taken my asthma meds. I guess it was both. But the results were Q-U-I-C-K!! I lost a few pounds.

Fast forward to March 2009. I told my friend about the BP and we ordered for 3 sets each of the level 1.. And the effect of the BPs on her was amazing! She really lost a lot! In my case, yes I lost a lot as well even without exercise (except for the stair climbing to the flat). After 3 months I stopped the BPs.

From then on, things went downhill I suppose. No exercise. No BPs. No healthy diet. the only exercise that I get somehow is when I place a parking ticket every hour and climb that 4 flights of stairs every hour to my office. This was good, I somehow maintained my flat tummy and kept my figure at a plateau I can accept.

2010. Im getting fatter and older. Each day. By March I moved out of the flat to a studio apartment. I was lazy. THe bldg I was staying at had a gym, pool and sauna which I did not use (STOOOPPIIIID!). I ate like nothing! I didnt care, I just ate. No exercise. Nothing!

Got myself into a lot of problems too. I was affected by the crisis. In the sense that my careless spending got back at me when the recession hit. So Im always stressed, looking for ways to make ends meet. I lost my drive, energy and desire to be fit and better. Im sad and sometimes I feel like Im depressed. Im frustrated at work most of the times too..

June 2010. My friend and I ordered the pills again 2 level 1 and 1 level 2 for each of us. Both were detected by fedex and we did not receive our package. Money lost.. :(((

To sum it up, Im size 14 touching 15, at least at 180lbs (?? I dont weigh myself but that's what I think, Im at my biggest EVER!!!!) sad most of the times, not exercising, not eating healthy, just... just getting by. Thanks to my bf who has always been there for me though. From the day we got together I was at my best in everything, and now I am at my worst at everything too.. He is still here with me, helping me out every step of the way. Though not that much financially as he earns less than I do, but he takes care of me during my weak moments. Agh! So much drama and financial troubles in my life right now.. 2010 sucked for me and still is as my dream car that I got last year just wouldnt start this Saturday only (maybe coz I havent sent the car for maintenance since it reached 5000kms and now its at 20000 kms huhuhu), unregistered, no insurance, and fines not paid!! Hayyy.. just remembered this:

Phobe Buffay: It should have been called, "It's a sucky life and just when you think it can't suck any more it does."

A friend of mine visited the country for 1 month (August) tryng to look for a job and I asked him to bring me 1 set of level 2 BP. Just 1 set, because first its expensive for him, second, dangerous if caught at the airport, 3 I just didnt want to lose that much money again. He managed to deliver it to me and now Im starting to think of using it again.. The catch is, I dont have the instructions! duh! My friend didnt know he was supposed to have an instruction leaf for it. So now its stuck here.. hmmmm.. been searching the net on how to use it but I cant find it. What to do now??

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Non BP related but might soon be BP related:

My bf made me promise to exercise again and be healthy again. How can I when we always order these Indian food????? He doesnt eat anything that is not as tasty nor spicy. He doesnt eat the food that I used to eat as described in my blogs circa 2008. He is not overweight but he is also not fit though.

So yesterday, we tried the gym after work, and boy, was I out of shape!! I did my usual stretching and my body ached just from stretching!!!! Went to use the treadmill to walk, brisk walk, run for 2 mins, walk with the incline starting at incline 2, increasing up to 10 (and then back down) every 2 minutes at the speed of 5.5. I set the time for 45 minutes and was able to do 30mins only. I did a few weights for my arms and the leg press. No sit ups yet, no hiphop abs yet, but I will get back to it.

I just dont know how can I get back to my old eating habits again now that Im so used to eating the way that he does.. I want to shop for the healthy food but I know he wont eat them and will buy his own food that we end up spending twice for food, instead of sharing them. Btw, Indian food portions are enough for 2 most of the time (and sooo damn tasty!).

I want to work out in the morning again. It feels good. And in the evening do the sauna thing.

Lets see. We are planning to go to the gym again later.. slowly.. I will build my strength for exercising again!! And I will be quoting Shaun T again sometime soon!!! :D

(hopefully I get to use my BPs too :((( )

Doooodeeeedooodeeeedooo beeedooobeeedooo...